It was a Big Step, Sharing what I've learned from the Wheel

And while I stood there I saw more than I can tell,
and I understood more than I saw;
for I was seeing in a sacred manner the shapes of things in the spirit,
and the shape of all shapes as they must live together like one being.
Black Elk, Black Elk Speaks

I wasn't sure how I was going to share and say thank you at the same time, so first thank you to all who attended the Wheel workshop, it was an honor to share what I've learned...so far.

The Medicine Wheel workshop was wonderful and all I'd hope it would be. The weather was perfect. I believe ordered up by God/Creator, just for us. I was particularly honored, because I think God in his way, showed me he is pleased with the Wheel, and it showing people how to re-connect to him in a Natural way. Why do I say this? Not only because of the beautiful vision, giving me a message while we were in the Wheel via a Tulip, but because, a Minister, a man of the cloth, came to the workshop to learn about the Wheel and what, 'it' would have to say to him, and speak to him... it did.

At first, I was a little nervous about Pastor. Bob coming to hear what I had to say about the Wheel, God, Creator and hearing through the Divine Essence of Nature. After all, he's a minster that's had years of teaching on God... I am not someone who's studied deeply about God and or the bible. I go by what I hear and 'instructed' to learn. What I know about God and the bible, are limited through my memory of my Catholic up-bringing and what I'm occasionally told to read in the bible. My knowledge of the Medicine Helpers, the Wheel and connecting to that higher source is what I have learned through the Wheel, lectures, ceremonies and what and where Spirit has directed me to learn from.

But, 'The voice' said, "Kellie, just speak the truth. Do not be who you are not...simply be who you are. Share don't lecture on what you've learned over the past 19 months. Remember do not speak my name to be a name dropper, merely speak what you have learned in the Medicine Wheel, from Me, the Native Americans, Nature and your Guides, and you will be alright".

They were right....I had nothing to be worried about. Pastor. Bob, was a wonderful addition to the workshop. Offering insights and perspectives on things through his unique connection to God/Creator/ the Divine/Great Mystery and 'things' he has learned that are deemed outside his 'calling'. We in return, learned a few things from him, which combined with all the beautiful people that attended, made this first workshop, grand.

With that said, It was a big step. A step that's been in the works, I believe for a while. I thought I'd never get here, finally comfortable or feeling qualified enough to share what I've learned since first being instructed to mow the Medicine Wheel. There is so much to learn and learning this tiny amount has taken longer than I could have imagined, by attending lectures, listening to Spirit, and God. Sometimes having the feeling of being lost, only to be found and guided by God, an Animal, Standing people, Stone, maybe an Ancestor helper, or relative of the Wheel, or sometimes through the words of another person, to put me back on track.

I have to admit though, I think the biggest surprise I've learned in these past months, is using Animal and other Medicine Helpers is not a light hearted subject which anyone can teach...its serious Medicine, and why I questioned my qualifications of did I have the right to be a speaker on this subject. The Native Americans had 100 of years to learn what they know. They lived the life. I am a Non Native American, baby taking my first steps and I realized early, working with Medicine Helpers is something you have to live everyday, feel every day, see everyday and be guided by Spirit and God everyday to learn. I found out, which I first believed like many do, it's not merely about saying you have a Totem, and or I see this animal all the time... there is much much more. If I would have known all there is to it, I might not have proceeded and asked to learn more. That's probably why 'they' didn't tell or show me all I would need to learn. They are just so smart...:)
So I am doublely honored they asked me to be the Wheel's guardian and now share what I have learned... and I am ready for my continuing education:)

So to 'them' I say thank you, for what you've taught me through your guidance so far.
I say thank you now too, in case I forget, to those who will teach and guide me farther and with their help, I hope to offer more workshops on the Medicine Wheel and its Helpers.
I can't forget to put a big thank you out to Rick McBride for giving me and a few others the chance to take his grueling, soul searching, mind digging, 2 day, nine-ten hour a day courses of which I not only took once, but twice, and his other classes, which enlightened and prepared me to move forward on this subject.
Plus I must thank him too for answering my emails, sometimes letting me learn things on my own, and for as he put it, putting his BS indicator out on me, and lucky for me, it did not go off. Thus he came and did the 10 day retreat, where he and I got time to talk one on one, and I learned things one cannot learn in lectures, books or on the computer.
Plus it was from him and one of his fellow Sundance Elders, I received the conformation I needed, that I was not going insane...LOL.

I have to say thank you too, to Creator and Spirits of the Sundance, which made it possible that Linda and I were able to attend Sundance ceremony, of which we learned much and I believe gave us the ability to truly see the difference between knowing Creator and Medicine Helpers and only knowing about Creator and Medicine Helpers.

And I cannot forget to thank, who ever guided my friend Linda and I through our Walks of Knowing, (which I've learned now is not the time to do walks with others...yet) though they were often difficult physical and emotional 'classes' of learning, they too were preparation for understanding the power in Thunder Hollow Medicine Wheel and all its Helpers and the powers out side the Wheel and the connection to God as well. I am still learning, and not sure I could teach about any other Medicine Wheel, and its Medicine Helpers, it would be out of my territory. But for now that's ok, there is plenty of schooling in just this one and I am loving the lessons, so I say.... keep em coming. I do have to confess, that though I have seen and experienced the power, often I don't fully understand the power in it all... but I cannot wait to see what is ahead. I am ready for the hours I know it will take for my higher education on the workings of this and any other Wheel and Medicine Helpers and their powers.

Be well
Laugh often
Love large
Dig in the dirt
Grow a garden
and may the sun light your way
Kellie
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Herbs & Things

Unconscious Ego

Don't ever take a fence down until you know why it was put up.
~Robert Frost~


Herbs & Things Will be closed
The Week of Sept 11th-17th
I'll be at The Holland Farmers Market
maybe..8:30-11 AM Sept 11th? (will let you know)
and all day...Sept 18th
Also I'll be closed
Oct 1st and 2nd...attending a lecture.

Have you ever made what some one else is doing...your problem because 'you know' what they are doing is wrong and it affects you or you think it does?
Recently I had that problem, I made what someone else was doing, a problem I thought I needed to fix or do something about...and had been struggling with it for weeks, with a mix of anger and hurt.
While mowing one day, 'they' reminded me of something I read in a book, about a Master that got blamed for something he did not do. I could not remember what book, what he got blamed for, or what his name was, I just had a flashing remembrance to the story, of which the ending or moral of the story was...eventually the truth came out that he did not do what he was accused of.
A couple mornings after this flashing remembrance, driving home on the Thruway after taking Rick to pick his semi up, I was forced to go slow (49 MPH in a 65), with flashers, slowly getting to Herbst Garage to get ......HELP Brian.:), because the stabilizer shock in the Jeep got tired and said...get a new one, and while every one was whizzing by me and I was concentrating keeping the Jeep under 55 to avoid the shattering shimmy, 'They' made a suggestion.
Their suggestion, with the reasoning, that I'd made a choice to put and fix a problem, I thought was mine...with what I thought valid reasons, on my agenda, that however, was not my problem to fix, that I should do...'their suggestion'.
They then left me to my own free will of decisions, with their suggestions, and explanation..the course of action... or better yet, a course of.. no action...would be better, than me trying to fix it. However, I still pondered...how to fix 'it'.
The next morning...leaving me no doubts or anything to ponder...they finally made no more suggestions, but told me...
"You have made something that is not your business, your business. It is not your business nor your problem, LET IT GO! God/ the Universe/ or what ever WILL take care of it. but YOU...NEED...TO...LET IT GO!"
"OK...I'll let it go. Jeeze!"
In the mix of my wanting to fix 'this problem' and then being told to let it go, my niece Rachel had come to visit and gone to the Medicine Wheel. As I watched her walk back I heard "ask her about the message she has for you".
So I did.
She said, "oh Aunt Kellie, yes I do. But,I am having a hard time deciphering what they are telling me. I'll have to sort through it and get back to you."
The next day without her knowing that I had been reprimanded about what I 'should not ' do..and had finally LET IT GO..
She emailed me the message...
I was to read in Chapter 7, section 7 in Eckhart Tolle's book, a piece called...IS THAT SO? That it would help me with a 'problem'.
But before I read that, I wrote her and told her that I had been reprimanded about making this problem that was not mine, mine:) and had let it go, But that I would still read that section in Eckhart's book...
As I read 'Is That So' at first I thought I was getting chastised again, but then was told "re-read it." I did, and realized this was the story 'they' had referred to a couple days earlier, and in reading it the second time, I figured out what they wanted me to learn...that if someone is doing you wrong...sometimes, particularly in this situation....NO REACTION is better than reacting because eventually the truth will come out. As I said, I've done what I was told and I've let it go, allowing the forces that are, to take care of it. And you know what, sense I've turned it over...and though I think of it sometimes, but know its 'not my problem' ...I feel much better!
I guess this is a lesson about...Ego, and I am suppose to share with whom ever is out there that needs to learn about the Unconscious Ego.
My Ego, which can be quite large, I am Scotch/Irish after all :) that definitely comes from my Dad's side, is something I work hard on, but yet I was shown, mine or any one's Ego, can...unconsciously... slip in disguised as 'fixing a problem' that you feel affects you, thus you put something not yours on your agenda, and it affects everything you do, how you interact with people, and your perspective on other things other than 'the problem', over all affecting your life, needlessly.
I guess, I am suppose to tell you....if right now, you have something in your life that you think you should fix but its a struggle, listen to the voice of, that no reaction some times is better than reaction, don't let your Ego take over. Trust (which may not be easy) that 'the problem' will get taken care of, just maybe not when and how you think it should be...but it will be:)

Kellie