Hello From Herbs & Things:)God,
grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to
change the things I can and the wisdom
to know the difference (from the Serenity prayer)
Reinhold Neibuhr
to know the difference (from the Serenity prayer)
Reinhold Neibuhr
Hello it’s me, MIA Kellie. I’ve not
forgotten you…I've been getting gardens in, putting fences around the gardens to
keep unwanted critters out, mowing lawns and the Medicine Wheel and trying to
listen to ‘the voice’.
Before I get into what they want me to share now…I want to say…I had such a Great time at the Colden Community’s first Farmers Market. I am so looking forward to being there again Jun 2nd! What a wonderful job the girls from the Bread of Life did putting the market together. Thank you!
Ok so onward…amazingly what nature and the Medicine Helpers have been ‘speaking’ to me is right. Each animal that has come to me of late, ‘speaks’ of a shift. This was also confirmed at the last spiritual gab through Kathy H and her knowledge in astrology, and most recently in what I thought at first a disturbing dream of my house falling down, which merely signified letting go of old thoughts. So as you read in the June events page, the direction of 'things' at Herbs & Things is changing just a little. You may want to get a cup of tea and a snack this newsletter is long
Even as I write this, it’s with uncertainty of why I need to share ALL of this because it ‘seems’ to be so much, but I will because I believe it’s what I am suppose to do. Plus I received conformation of sharing it all, through a book and also at the Colden’s Farmers Market…so here goes…
Spirit/God/ The voice has been working diligently with me about the struggles I’ve had of late. I never was one to be jealous of what others had, nor did I care to keep up with what others were doing or had. I always walked and danced to my own tune and was content and happy with where I was, what I had and what I was doing. Life to me, in spite of any hardships put in front of me...was never a struggle.
To struggle and endure are two different things. I've had hard times, no money, no work, death, sickness, heartache; abuse...many things that go along with living life...yet though sometimes it was hard, I never struggled with day to day life.
So imagine my feelings, when I started struggling in everything I was doing and everything I was not doing. I found it a struggle to be. A struggle to lose weight, ‘hear’, ‘see’, get motivated, live life in general. I wondered why I was struggling when I did not struggle when I was instructed to put the Wheel in and that was no small feat. Why were so many other things that were huge in my life not a struggle, but now I was struggling with even the simple things of every day life?
The wake up came with that large brick at the Tree Whisperer workshop, I spoke of in the last newsletter, that not only made me see, but also made we take another look at what it is I am suppose to be doing, realizing I was not listening to the guidance of Spirit/God. Hence the struggle was not in what I was trying to do, but instead in what I was not doing.
What I was not doing was not heeding 'the guidance” and most importantly I was not being true to who I am, my calling, walking my own path and trusting that I will reach my goals no matter how impossible they may seem if I don’t rush it, and if only I trust.
‘They’ also have been trying to show me this revelation, through revisits to when I was a volunteer leader of the Galloping 4-H'rs horse 4-H club. Not through all the things we did, but more importantly…what the 4-H was about.
Before I get into what they want me to share now…I want to say…I had such a Great time at the Colden Community’s first Farmers Market. I am so looking forward to being there again Jun 2nd! What a wonderful job the girls from the Bread of Life did putting the market together. Thank you!
Ok so onward…amazingly what nature and the Medicine Helpers have been ‘speaking’ to me is right. Each animal that has come to me of late, ‘speaks’ of a shift. This was also confirmed at the last spiritual gab through Kathy H and her knowledge in astrology, and most recently in what I thought at first a disturbing dream of my house falling down, which merely signified letting go of old thoughts. So as you read in the June events page, the direction of 'things' at Herbs & Things is changing just a little. You may want to get a cup of tea and a snack this newsletter is long
Even as I write this, it’s with uncertainty of why I need to share ALL of this because it ‘seems’ to be so much, but I will because I believe it’s what I am suppose to do. Plus I received conformation of sharing it all, through a book and also at the Colden’s Farmers Market…so here goes…
Spirit/God/ The voice has been working diligently with me about the struggles I’ve had of late. I never was one to be jealous of what others had, nor did I care to keep up with what others were doing or had. I always walked and danced to my own tune and was content and happy with where I was, what I had and what I was doing. Life to me, in spite of any hardships put in front of me...was never a struggle.
To struggle and endure are two different things. I've had hard times, no money, no work, death, sickness, heartache; abuse...many things that go along with living life...yet though sometimes it was hard, I never struggled with day to day life.
So imagine my feelings, when I started struggling in everything I was doing and everything I was not doing. I found it a struggle to be. A struggle to lose weight, ‘hear’, ‘see’, get motivated, live life in general. I wondered why I was struggling when I did not struggle when I was instructed to put the Wheel in and that was no small feat. Why were so many other things that were huge in my life not a struggle, but now I was struggling with even the simple things of every day life?
The wake up came with that large brick at the Tree Whisperer workshop, I spoke of in the last newsletter, that not only made me see, but also made we take another look at what it is I am suppose to be doing, realizing I was not listening to the guidance of Spirit/God. Hence the struggle was not in what I was trying to do, but instead in what I was not doing.
What I was not doing was not heeding 'the guidance” and most importantly I was not being true to who I am, my calling, walking my own path and trusting that I will reach my goals no matter how impossible they may seem if I don’t rush it, and if only I trust.
‘They’ also have been trying to show me this revelation, through revisits to when I was a volunteer leader of the Galloping 4-H'rs horse 4-H club. Not through all the things we did, but more importantly…what the 4-H was about.
It was a time when Rick and I could barely scrape enough money together to have two dollars in our wallet, put gas in the vehicles, which were two old vehicles that were nickel and diming us to death.... yet...some how, some way, because the 4-H was fueled and driven by God/ Spirit, there was always money, much of which at first was taken from our own empty pockets, for ribbons, classes, judges, gas for trucking, weekend clinics, picnics, mallets for the polo team, and every year a wonderful year end awards dinner, where everyone, about 80 or so people, young and old, got some sort of an award. And though we had no money, it was a time of great richness and happiness.
In didn’t matter that leading the group involved many hours, of sunburned, dusty, tiring, work. Many miles driving and hauling, lots of weekends spent with kids, showing, camping, basically horses and kids all over the place. Sometimes I even wondered why I did it, but at the end of the day and I saw what the children had learned, the fun they had, and the confidence they acquired...thus something they’d take with them to adulthood... I knew why and it was all worth it, worth more than the last dollar from our pockets.
So I finally get what ‘they’ve’ been trying to tell and show me…I’d been listening to my non guided voice and comparing myself to others, of what life says I should be doing, instead of my calling. My calling of to help, heal, guide and direct those who come in to my life. My job or calling is to help people see their potential and reach their goals and remember their goals are not mine. To let them know they are heard and with right action and right prayer that even though there might be detours, if you 'listen' you will have everything that can make you happy in life, and that happiness is not revolved around the dollar, a fancy house, new cars or having it ‘all’.
So the reason I was struggling with this huge dream and goal I have for Herbs & Things, myself and many others, is because I was trying to force movement of those dreams and goals, which are so big they look impossible, because without a lot of money, it in my mind can never be, which caused me frustration. Thus I was shown through revisiting the 4-H, if I let God/Spirit/that higher source take the reins nothing is impossible. Hence…how they showed me was...
I was taken back to that time of two dollars in my pocket, on a summer day in 1977, as I was driving to go give a riding lesson, and I heard, "any where you see horses in pastures, write a letter stating you are starting a 4-H for horses and wonder if those horses would like to bring their kids.."
HUH? I never even did 4-H myself, I showed strictly AHSA. What an odd idea?
Yet as soon as the idea came to me, I felt excitement deep within. So I composed that letter, sent it out locally to any home where I saw horses in the pastures and asked them if those horses would like to bring their kids to join a 4-H.
After a couple weeks into the 4-H I asked my sister if she'd be interested in being an assistant leader, and she said yes. For the first couple of years, we made the kids ribbons by hand from 1 inch wide ribbon and yarn made into pompoms that went on top. Each class had placings 1st-6thwith the placing written in glitter, along with now the name of the club, The Galloping 4-hers. We made enough ribbons for 20 classes with 6 places for one clinic a month, then for the year end Family Brawl, which there were always enough ribbons for everyone.
The Galloping 4-H’rs grew from 5 kids into 27 and their horses. It was a successful, family orientated, fun filled group, run solely on love of what I was doing, donations from families, local sponsors for the polo team (a team that went to the national play offs, and came in 2nd) Flickengers food service donations of food (when ask by my mother) for the year-end banquet, and of course all under the direction by that higher source, all things that could not be done with those two dollars in my pocket.
So when 'they' tell me again, its not about the money, it's about being true to who I am, I think I finally get it, and it makes me realize too, sometimes to reach our goals, we have to do something not related to our goals at all.
This I was shown by being taken back again to a time of the Galloping 4-h'rs, when they showed at Erie County Fair. There were a lot of different classes for the children and their horses, Pleasure, Trail, Games, Walk Trot, Fitting and Showmanship...and more.
I had one young man his goal was… he and his horse be Gaming Champions at the fair. Thus he could not see the why of, nor did he like, doing Pleasure, equitation or most of all Fitting and Showmanship.
Protesting against the fitting and showmanship he’d say to me, “I don't need to know Fitting and Showmanship Kellie to win in games. I just need to run fast, know my patterns, and have my horse fit. I don't need to get all dressed up, acting all fancy and parade my horse around and show how much control and etiquette I have and that I know the parts of the horse. They should know I have control I can run my horse at full speed, steer her, and stop her. If that's not control I'd like to know what it is?"
My response, "Here’s the deal, you want to game, you MUST do Fitting Showmanship. But, you can't just muddle through it, You have do it like it means the world to you, like you love it and it’s the Fitting and Showmanship championship you want to win not the games. And if you can’t convince me, it looks like you love doing fitting and showmanship… then sorry you still don’t show at the fair."
I wasn’t even sure why I was so adamant about him doing the Fitting and Showmanship. I can tell you, he was not happy, but he did it.
It came fair time, he did marvelous in the games...he tied for Game Champion with a girl. The two each had their choice of how to break the tie, his, running poles, her’s fitting and showmanship. They chose, and then a coin was tossed to see who would win the pick for tie breaker. She won the toss...Fitting and showmanship was going to be the tie breaker class.
Long story short, he reached his goal of Gaming Champion through something he liked least...Fitting and Showmanship! There it was that thing that had nothing to do with the goal he wanted to reach but ultimately was the thing he needed to reach his goal.
After-wards, He came up to me and hugged me...and said..."Thank you Kellie for pushing me to do something I thought I'd never need. How did you know? I am so glad you were 'mean' and Made me do this. I am so glad. How did you know?"
I responded, "How did I know? I don’t know. It’s just something I knew you needed to do, but did not know why. Well now we both know the why.”
Which brings me back to my goal for and Herbs & Things, the community and nature, a goal that needs a lot of money…thus apparently if one reaches their goals by doing something that has nothing to do with the goals, I’ve been instructed that from now on, almost all classes and workshop at Herbs & Things, will be Free or by donation only. No more collecting money for the classes I, Kellie, offer… I’m still waiting for some answers on questions about the classes and lectures I teach, and as soon as I know…so will you
Oh…and one more thing. Since I’ve decided to listen and be true to who I am, and follow that path I am suppose to be on…I have no feelings of struggle, well maybe one struggle yet, weight. But I know that answer will come... when it is time.
Whew such a relief.
Be well
Laugh often
Love large
Dig in the dirt
Grow a garden
and may the sun light your way
Kellie
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